AnTe bLoGsIdE

Life's fragile

Attended Corny's grandmother(gm) "Song Ka" last friday... Could see the sadness within her though she din show it... Her gm had been on morphine for the past 6 months and prolonging death... It's kinda sad for her as she goes back and visit her gm often... For her, I hoped she recovers soon enough and gets over it asap...

During the period I was there, I kinda envy her alot... She's very closely kitted to her aunties and cousins.... Come to think of it, i was never close to any of my cousins before, be it paternal or maternal.... Never close to me relatives nor grandparents... Somehow, it seems like I'm living in a world of my own... Dunno whether izzit good or bad.... But still somehow envy others of the close relationships....

Somehow, I was thinking that if one day I were to come to that stage, I'd not want to suffer longer than expected... If there's a faster time for me to leave, I'd want to do it quickly... Prolonging will only make the love ones suffer longer, in terms of mentally, physically and monetary..... Most importantly, for me, leaving without any regrets is what I wished.... though I still have 1 regret, which I'm trying hard to dismiss.... :(

posted by AnTe @ 9/04/2006 11:36:00 PM